Tuesday, 24 January 2012

Keeping it real

So, I'm sick, with a cold, a really BAD COLD.  You know the kind, achy, chills, fever, running nose, coughing up gorp and for many a blessing because I've lost my voice.  Pretty huh?

However, I'm living a conundrum.  I'm sick and sort of whiny, no, a lot whiny and haven't seen my friend Bob in over a week because of this.  We've been back and forth with email but it still isn't the same as a face to face conversation.  Our last conversation was one of facing the reality of what he is living with.  The bravado is now gone, fear and depression have set in as well as the overall feeling of doom along with being VERY sick because of the experimental chemo.  He also expressed his fear of the timeline he was given...Three Months, it has been over a month since the diagnosis.  Tick Tock.

What sort of friend am I to complain to him that I have a cold?  I really, really feel as though I've let him down recently by being so busy with my dad and then coming down with this galloping gorp.

Other than investing in a Hazmat Suit, our visits will have to be put on hold.  Sometimes reality bites.


Life's fun if you don't weaken,

Lily

9 comments:

Marlene said...

Try not to feel bad, even if it is in your nature. You won't be any good to him when you're sick and I'm sure he can't be exposed to anything. I hope you feel better soon! VERY soon!!

Born To Endure said...

Mask? Gloves? Alcohol gel? I remember when my sister got the 3 month diagnosis..it's amazing how correct they are..they work with this everyday, so they know.
I so regret that time I couldn't spend with her because I didn't know how sick I would make her as I had a bronchitis and I was so scared to make her sick..in the end it didn't matter..it did matter though the time I couldn't spend with her..tough call..whatever you decide, just know it's okay either way!

TNTcoach Ken said...

Stay in tough however you can, I'm sure that helps. Get well..............

Wes said...

nobody expects more of you than your best. I hope you feel bettter.

Xenia said...

You're doing all you can and, I hate to say it, but you are doing more than most by doing that. Don't feel bad. Do what you can, because that is all anyone can do.

Stuart said...

The fact that you even think of this is testament to your friendship!

kilax said...

Ditto what Marlene said! Don't feel bad. And I hope you feel better soon so you can see him :)

Ewa said...

Install Skype and you can talk to him for free as long as it is computer to computer. And yes, you can complain to him about your cold. He is your friend and sharing is what it is all about. As long as you don't make your cold the center of the conversation it is fine.
You are such a caring and sensitive soul, I love that about you and I bet so does he.
Hope you feel better soon.
I also hope doctors are wrong about his condition. They have been known to err, you know.
HUGS!!!

blondie16 said...

Absolutely install Skype if at all possible.

I hope you are feeling better. Prayers and good thoughts for Bob.

love and hugs,
~ b