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| not too happy, just super excited! |
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| he likes me because I brought carrots! |
I survived, barely!
Life's fun if you don't weaken
Lily
Saturday, 28 April 2012
first ride in a LONG time
I survived, barely!
Life's fun if you don't weaken
Lily
Thursday, 26 April 2012
anxiety or am I listening to the voices in my head?
You just never know where life will take you.
Back in 2008 I posted "In my past life". A segment of my life which I thought was closed, gone, forgotten and never to be re-addressed. Well, the past couple of weeks have seen a window of the past re-opening. I would have never imagined that I'd let all those negative thoughts rattle around in my head again, but I have...temporarily. Every single demon I have let drag me down in the past tried their nasty little game again. This time I have to say, I've only let them show themselves for about a week or so.
The I'm not good enough, I'm not competent, the I'll never be able to do that again, the I can't afford it. Everyone will think I'm crazy. The nay sayers, the negative nellies, the ones who bring you down because of their own insecurities. You know when someone tells you that "you can't soar with the eagles if you let the turkey's get you down"? Well, after much mulling about, throwing myself a major pity party and almost falling back into a pattern of self destruct, I am rising above all of that and looking at this opportunity in a whole different light. I'll be soaring with the eagles!
Thankfully, I have grown as a person, and I can honestly say that running, cycling, swimming and triathlon have all taught me that. Funny how you can compete in all those elements and only feel as though you are competing against yourself, not against anyone else. That is how I'm going to handle this new / old adventure. I'm heading back to the barn!
Don't get me wrong, I'll still be running, cycling and hopefully still churning it up in the pool.
What this new / old avenue will give me is some peace of mind that I'm still getting some exercise, some much needed horse hugging, meeting some new people, and it also allows me to be close to home just in case I get one of "those" phone calls that has me heading the Emergency Room to meet up with my dad. (yes, I've had those when I've been out running and 21k from nowhere and had to run to the nearest place and beg for a drive home).
So, to those old demons who were trying their hardest to deter me from taking up the sport I walked away from, I say begone! I'm a bigger, better person than what I was way back then, the past is just that ~ "past" and I'm in it for totally different reasons now. I'll be just fine!!!
Life's fun if you don't weaken,
Lily
Back in 2008 I posted "In my past life". A segment of my life which I thought was closed, gone, forgotten and never to be re-addressed. Well, the past couple of weeks have seen a window of the past re-opening. I would have never imagined that I'd let all those negative thoughts rattle around in my head again, but I have...temporarily. Every single demon I have let drag me down in the past tried their nasty little game again. This time I have to say, I've only let them show themselves for about a week or so.
The I'm not good enough, I'm not competent, the I'll never be able to do that again, the I can't afford it. Everyone will think I'm crazy. The nay sayers, the negative nellies, the ones who bring you down because of their own insecurities. You know when someone tells you that "you can't soar with the eagles if you let the turkey's get you down"? Well, after much mulling about, throwing myself a major pity party and almost falling back into a pattern of self destruct, I am rising above all of that and looking at this opportunity in a whole different light. I'll be soaring with the eagles!
Thankfully, I have grown as a person, and I can honestly say that running, cycling, swimming and triathlon have all taught me that. Funny how you can compete in all those elements and only feel as though you are competing against yourself, not against anyone else. That is how I'm going to handle this new / old adventure. I'm heading back to the barn!
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| dusting off the riding boots |
What this new / old avenue will give me is some peace of mind that I'm still getting some exercise, some much needed horse hugging, meeting some new people, and it also allows me to be close to home just in case I get one of "those" phone calls that has me heading the Emergency Room to meet up with my dad. (yes, I've had those when I've been out running and 21k from nowhere and had to run to the nearest place and beg for a drive home).
So, to those old demons who were trying their hardest to deter me from taking up the sport I walked away from, I say begone! I'm a bigger, better person than what I was way back then, the past is just that ~ "past" and I'm in it for totally different reasons now. I'll be just fine!!!
Life's fun if you don't weaken,
Lily
Monday, 16 April 2012
I'm still here!
Just a quick note to let you know I'm still here! As if I'd go very far!
I sort of lost my mojo the past few weeks due to duress of real life matters and the up and down weather has been a killer for me. One day it is nice, the next it is cold and crappy and really, what's with this wind we've been having? Brutal! Running has been small distances but consistent and cycling has been sporadic due to the weather and wind, I know, what a wimp.
Trying to find all the income tax information for my dad has been an adventure as well, let's just say I have one final bit of information to have filled out by his doctor and I believe the accountant will work his magic, but in the mean time, Tick Tock on the filing date.
Speaking of dad, he is doing as well as can be expected. His dementia is escalating so I'm trying to spend as much time as I can with him while he can still recognise me and while he can still enjoy doing some fun things. He loves gardening so I think this is why I'm trying to hurry up the Canadian spring weather!
My new Saucony's are creating blister's, what's with that? I've worn the Saucony brand for over ten years and never had a problem. I'll try to switch up my socks, the way they are tied or figure out something before I write the company and ask for some suggestions.
I've also committed to riding the GrandFondo in July, I'm debating the Bring on the Bay, 3k swim also in July, I just need to find the time to hit the pool and get some serious swimming done. September seems such a long way a way, but I have volunteered to be a ride guide again for this year's Ride the Rideau. Cancer can be beaten!
Well, that's it for now. I must get on line to stalk my friends who are running at Boston today. One being a very good friend and considered my "Blog Daughter", Marlene at Mission to a(nother) Marathon. Both Marlene and her husband Mark qualified for today's race! Good Luck you two, have a great race and make some wonderful memories.
Life's fun if you don't weaken,
Lily
I sort of lost my mojo the past few weeks due to duress of real life matters and the up and down weather has been a killer for me. One day it is nice, the next it is cold and crappy and really, what's with this wind we've been having? Brutal! Running has been small distances but consistent and cycling has been sporadic due to the weather and wind, I know, what a wimp.
Trying to find all the income tax information for my dad has been an adventure as well, let's just say I have one final bit of information to have filled out by his doctor and I believe the accountant will work his magic, but in the mean time, Tick Tock on the filing date.
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| Wonderful Easter |
Speaking of dad, he is doing as well as can be expected. His dementia is escalating so I'm trying to spend as much time as I can with him while he can still recognise me and while he can still enjoy doing some fun things. He loves gardening so I think this is why I'm trying to hurry up the Canadian spring weather!
My new Saucony's are creating blister's, what's with that? I've worn the Saucony brand for over ten years and never had a problem. I'll try to switch up my socks, the way they are tied or figure out something before I write the company and ask for some suggestions.
I've also committed to riding the GrandFondo in July, I'm debating the Bring on the Bay, 3k swim also in July, I just need to find the time to hit the pool and get some serious swimming done. September seems such a long way a way, but I have volunteered to be a ride guide again for this year's Ride the Rideau. Cancer can be beaten!
Well, that's it for now. I must get on line to stalk my friends who are running at Boston today. One being a very good friend and considered my "Blog Daughter", Marlene at Mission to a(nother) Marathon. Both Marlene and her husband Mark qualified for today's race! Good Luck you two, have a great race and make some wonderful memories.
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| Me and Marlene at the Oasis Zoo Run |
Lily
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